BEHIND THE SCENES
“I fell into this project by accident. I was dragged to a Queer MeetUp by a friend looking to meet new gays. I had no desire to go. I’d given my heart to a girl who gave it back to me when I wanted her to have it the most. It was hard to sleep at night, or stop thinking of her, let alone breathe knowing that my heart was returned to me. I did not want to go to this MeetUp. So I joked with the circle of strangers, “Yeah, I pick up people outside of the bathroom. Lol jk, I don’t date. Actually, I’m heartbroken and am in a lot of pain hahah.” Man, I was not okay. Then this girl with crazy blonde hair in a long tan shirt that made her look like she wasn’t wearing pants rose her hand, “I’m making a film called, BLOCK. It’s about this girl who carries this invisible cinderblock ... I know it sounds insane. Basically, majority of the story she is trying to tell everyone that being gay is a good thing and that it’s fine, but she’s not accepting the fact that she’s not okay.
“I realized that day that I knew what she was talking about. The BLOCK that kept me up at night. the mental BLOCK I could not get off my mind. The BLOCK so heavy it made it hard to breathe. I cared so much about love for other people that I forgot to love myself. I have such a big heart and endless desire to support the people I love. I never thought once to maybe turn that inwards. To look in the mirror and say, “I love you and I’m here for you always, through and through and through.” By happy accident, I fell in love with a story. Then I fell in love with this crew. Along the way I began to accept my BLOCK, walk alongside it, and learned to fall in love with it too. I fell into this project by accident and I’m pretty sure now that’s how love works anyway.”